The long-awaited day has finally arrived! King & Queen: A Royai Zine is a 5.5″ x 8.5″ perfect-bound charity fanzine celebrating the relationship between Roy Mustang and Riza Hawkeye from Fullmetal Alchemist. With over 25 illustrations and 12,000 words of fanfiction, this 70+ page zine comprises the work of more than 40 talented contributors! All proceeds will be donated to the non-profit organization Sightsavers.
To celebrate our pre-order launch, we will also be hosting a giveaway contest! Contest entry and bundle details can be viewed below the cut.
Check out our list of contributors as well as contributor previews for a sneak peek at what’s in store. If you have any questions, please send us an ask or email royaifanzine@gmail.com.
The long-awaited day has finally arrived! King & Queen: A Royai Zine is a 5.5″ x 8.5″ perfect-bound charity fanzine celebrating the relationship between Roy Mustang and Riza Hawkeye from Fullmetal Alchemist. With over 25 illustrations and 12,000 words of fanfiction, this 70+ page zine comprises the work of more than 40 talented contributors! All proceeds will be donated to the non-profit organization Sightsavers.
To celebrate our pre-order launch, we will also be hosting a giveaway contest! Contest entry and bundle details can be viewed below the cut.
Check out our list of contributors as well as contributor previews for a sneak peek at what’s in store. If you have any questions, please send us an ask or email royaifanzine@gmail.com.
Today is the last day to enter our giveaway of The King bundle! Make sure to get your entry in before 11:59pm EST!
ONE HOUR LEFT TO ENTER THE GIVEAWAY!
I honestly think i have depression.
Ive lost my appetite and have been eating less and less. And now nothing really tastes anymore. I used to love sweets and sour foods but i was convinced not to eat them bc they werent good for me. Then i gorged on spicy food which i know realize is probably bc i needed to feel something, even if it was pain but now ive stopped that too
Which is a fuxked up idek if it is an irony bc ive gotten desensitized to it little by little to growing up so now i want to feel it, its like im ok with horrible shit happening to me as long as its my choice (what the actual fuck right)
When i want to sleep i stay awake. When i want to put my electronics down i stil use them (like now). When i want to study i just cant, even if i have every thing in front of me even though i know im going to fail finals if i dont
When night rolls around and im just filled with determination to complete everything till i drop. Which makes shit worse considering i am so tired when i wake up.
I want to study something my mom would hate me for and i hate her so much i want her to die so i hate that i need her to approve of this even though my dream is to accomplish my goals and spite her with it. My dad is actually ok with it?? He even approves and i just cant accept it?? He has been forcing so much science bullshit down that its just what the fuck. I’ve gotten into screaming matches and lost hair and tried to kill my self and hes fine with it?? I know he probably went through something to learn but he is such a hypocrite and he has said he loved me everyday to saying he didnt over not getting a good grade and wanting to choke me and telling a tutor he wanted to slit my neck who told my mom who told me and hes fine with it. Theyre horrible, i hate them, they hate me, they love me, they hate each other. Theyve been bitching and poisoning me with bullshit about how each others family are evil and horrible and how my dads family wanted to kill me in my moms womb and my moms would hate me if i said anything against my parents and that i should ve grateful for them and they are so horrible, racist, sexist, and i hate that i learned it and i hate that i listen bc i know theyre wrong but i still did it, and i hate everyone and myself for doing it bc ik they dont love me they never did they only loved the girl they wanted and i knew that, i felt that and i still was so horrible to the one person who truly loved me. And i didnt even cry over her. I just watched my dad cry and went back to watching tv
And i didnt feel anything But nooooo now apparently that bitch told me how much she loved me and i hate her and him abd everypne and i cried for her in the bathroom wishing i could die and apologize bc i was a stupid kid who was so confused and who wanted go impress someone so horrible but who also kept me close after she loved my cousin so much more.
I hate them i want them to die. I just need their money and i dont even feel bad about feeling that i just cant have shit that hurts anymore but i always keep it anyway. I just cant stop doing it. Idķ idk idk i dont know how to stop i dont have anyone she died and even if she didnt she couldnt help me and i just want to be with her and apologize and go back in time and smile instead i dont know what to do everyone hates each other and wants me to hate everyone too then they act all nice and want me to love them and i just cant .i want them gone gone gone and to leave but i cant go anywhere its all to scary and i have no one and i cant talk about this but i just want too but i cant trust anyone i need to know them first and everything but i want to be able to i want someone to surprise me with love but i cant i dont want to its just too much to do but i want someone to wait for me and dig for me and stay by my side while im sleeping and watch over me and just love me so much they would go insane but i cant have it.
My mood swings like a pendulum between ecstatic fantasties of researching and learning and teaching with friends that ive gotten so close with to just a feeling of deep emptiness, like im drowning without the pain
It really doesn’t help that i just feel so dead inside. Like just emptiness
I just want to die without pain whether it be in my sleep or slip into a coma and never wake up. I want to forget them and live my life but i cant i want to have those stories of writing a book series and making enough to leave but i can barely finsih my assignments and i just want to die and not deal with anything but im just so scared and jealous and hateful and hopeful and passionate and so empty.
Stressed, Depressed, and Story Obsessed 